Bareback Party – Nottingham 7th November.
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Saturday, August 29, 2009
Twitter Update
I will be keeping the By the Numbers stats up to date through the year. You can also find my latest tweets below that.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Blog Status Update
I will no longer be adding to this blog. It's been almost a year since I started writing and I've loved the experience. I've learned and shared a lot by doing this, so I consider my goal met. I was going to carry out the blog until the end of the year, but there were numerous factors in my ending this early, the least of which was the fact that I have not had the time to put into writing detailed and meaningful entries. The time spent doing this takes away from actually having sex and spending time with Zach, and I have other personal hobbies that are desiring my attention as well.
I know many of you will be disappointed. I received a lot of email (over a hundred and counting) from fans over the last week in support of me and what I'm doing. I'm letting you know however, that I'm going to try something new so that all of you can still get your TOXICtwinks fix... twitter. I can still keep ya up to date on all the hot raw slutty action going on in my life without taking a ton of time for me. If you've followed me on here, please start following me at http://twitter.com/toxictwinks
I know many of you will be disappointed. I received a lot of email (over a hundred and counting) from fans over the last week in support of me and what I'm doing. I'm letting you know however, that I'm going to try something new so that all of you can still get your TOXICtwinks fix... twitter. I can still keep ya up to date on all the hot raw slutty action going on in my life without taking a ton of time for me. If you've followed me on here, please start following me at http://twitter.com/toxictwinks
Sunday, August 2, 2009
A Weekend Away
A few weekends back, Zach and I decided to get away to visit a friend in another city and while there get loaded up by as many guys as we could. We were there for three nights and we had already pre-arranged that the first night we would be our friend's bottom bitches for him and any of his friends to use as they wanted. Our friend is also a barebacker and gets around the city a lot so we figured he could hook us up. The second night we wanted to hit up a bath house, since neither of us had been to one yet, and the last night we just left open to see what might come our way. We had been chatting with people online the week leading up to it so we had quite a few possibilities... too many to get to in such a short time we realized, so we just started telling guys to come out the bathhouse the night we were going to be there and find us.
The night before we left I was being a greedy bottom who didn't want to wait for the weekend, so Zach called up one of his friends who had been wanting to fuck me for several months now. I was warned that he was big and rough, but I figured it would be a good way to break me in for the weekend so I could take anything. Unfortunatley I wasn't as prepared physically as I was mentally that night and he ended up tearing up my hole pretty bad. The next day while at work I was in pain all day and couldn't even stand to go to the bathroom, so I held it off as long as possible. I was pissed at myself. We made the quick decision to go on with our weekend anyway, but if I wasn't able to bottom, then Zach would get to be the featured bottom all weekend, and possibly try to catch up to my numbers for the year... after all, he is supposed to be the bigger bottom than me! And of course I certainly don't mind watching him get fucked, and to watch him get gang banged by a bunch of strangers had been a fantasy for a long time.
As soon as we arrived at our destination, our friend wasted no time in getting us "comfortable" for the evening. Within the first hour he and his roommate had tagged Zach for two loads each. They both tried to venture a finger or two up and around my hole, but I winced in pain and they realized it wasn't worth pursuing any more. They were both disappointed since they had both fucked Zach before, but never me.
It was late at night when we got there, so they weren't able to round up many guys for the party. He did get about a half dozen guys to drop by, mostly on their way home from the bar. The only one that was really memorable was a hot latin guy with about a 10" cock. He also had a washboard set of abs and really perky dark nipples. He also had a great smile and even though he could look intimidating at first and was very aggressive top, he was very friendly, conversive, and gentle at the same time. As he was leaving he winced at me and said I was lucky to have such a "hot bitch." That I am.
Our friend added another load towards the end, and I finished off with a huge load of my own that I had been edging up all night. By that point Zach already had 13 loads in him. We finally went to bed about 4 AM. Later on I was awakened by Zach and our friend fucking in bed next to me. I sort of watched and made out with them as they were fucking, but as soon as they were done I fell back to sleep. Late in the morning our friend crawled back into bed with us to wake us up to a morning threeway, when he and I double fucked Zach and came at almost the exact same time. 16 loads.
To be continued...
The night before we left I was being a greedy bottom who didn't want to wait for the weekend, so Zach called up one of his friends who had been wanting to fuck me for several months now. I was warned that he was big and rough, but I figured it would be a good way to break me in for the weekend so I could take anything. Unfortunatley I wasn't as prepared physically as I was mentally that night and he ended up tearing up my hole pretty bad. The next day while at work I was in pain all day and couldn't even stand to go to the bathroom, so I held it off as long as possible. I was pissed at myself. We made the quick decision to go on with our weekend anyway, but if I wasn't able to bottom, then Zach would get to be the featured bottom all weekend, and possibly try to catch up to my numbers for the year... after all, he is supposed to be the bigger bottom than me! And of course I certainly don't mind watching him get fucked, and to watch him get gang banged by a bunch of strangers had been a fantasy for a long time.
As soon as we arrived at our destination, our friend wasted no time in getting us "comfortable" for the evening. Within the first hour he and his roommate had tagged Zach for two loads each. They both tried to venture a finger or two up and around my hole, but I winced in pain and they realized it wasn't worth pursuing any more. They were both disappointed since they had both fucked Zach before, but never me.
It was late at night when we got there, so they weren't able to round up many guys for the party. He did get about a half dozen guys to drop by, mostly on their way home from the bar. The only one that was really memorable was a hot latin guy with about a 10" cock. He also had a washboard set of abs and really perky dark nipples. He also had a great smile and even though he could look intimidating at first and was very aggressive top, he was very friendly, conversive, and gentle at the same time. As he was leaving he winced at me and said I was lucky to have such a "hot bitch." That I am.
Our friend added another load towards the end, and I finished off with a huge load of my own that I had been edging up all night. By that point Zach already had 13 loads in him. We finally went to bed about 4 AM. Later on I was awakened by Zach and our friend fucking in bed next to me. I sort of watched and made out with them as they were fucking, but as soon as they were done I fell back to sleep. Late in the morning our friend crawled back into bed with us to wake us up to a morning threeway, when he and I double fucked Zach and came at almost the exact same time. 16 loads.
To be continued...
Monday, July 27, 2009
Interview With A California Cumdump
Around the time that I started doing the inverview with the young cumdump, I got the following email from a guy who just wants to be identified as a 29 year old in California:
"How goes it? Just wanted to write in real quick and say how much I love your blog. Chaser here, too. Started when I was 19. Culminated in a gangbang at a bathhouse when I was 22 in which I took over 20 loads - all anonymously. To be honest, haven't been tested since then. Don't know if I'm still poz or neg or what. But I can hardly turn down a load, and love giving them also. 29 here and love breeding younger guys too. Dump a load in to twinks at least 2-3 times a week.
I knew that I wanted to find out more about this guy, so I asked him if he would do a similar interview. He emphatically agreed saying, "I love talking about it with fellow guys that understand and are in to it :)"
First thing, give me a little introduction of yourself for my readers, like your stats, sexual interests, anything else interesting and unique we should know about you. Secondly, tell us about how, why, when you got into barebacking.
"As for stats, just turned 29 exactly a month ago. I'm 6'0'', 190, brown hair and eyes, mixed race (3/4 white, 1/4 hawaiian), 7.5c and pretty thick. As for sexual interests - just about anything, apart from scat, blood and paid. Love groups, bb, ws, gloryholes, anonymous scenes, taking pics and vids, roleplay, public sex, exhibitionism, voyeurism. I don't do drugs, though, so no PnP.
So... there wasn't necessarily a full trigger. Just a progression in to barebacking, really. Various things that added up to it, with particular experiences really standing out."
Wow.. that was quite the story! You implied that you're no longer just after the neg loads?
"Thanks! I had fun reliving it and writing it out! Yeah, I no longer care about whether a guy is poz or neg. All I care about is getting the load. A couple times, I've even found myself more turned on knowing the guy was poz and wanting his load even more because of that. But, for the most part, it's more about just not caring either way. Neg, poz, unsure, whatever. I still want the load. I can't really say how many poz loads I've taken. I'd been in a couple group scenes where I've taken a few, as the younger bottom and center of attention where the whole point was to have the poz guys fuck me. And some other groups where I had guys hint that they were poz while fucking me or after they came in me. And even hooked up with guys that didn't tell me they were poz, but that I knew were through mutual friends or from having seen them online somewhere.
It's not so much that I go out and actively seek poz loads. It's more that I will take just about any load from any guy I am already attracted to enough to hook up with (or sometimes even any load, no matter who the guy is, just because I'm feeling particularly slutty and want any load I can get), and have found myself even more turned on after finding out the guy is poz. Like, I already thought the guy was cute and was already arranging to hook up with him. And either before, during, or after we hook up, I find out he's poz and that just turns me on more, though I was going to hook up with him regardless. I'm hoping I'm expressing that in a way that makes sense haha."
Do you remember when you first knowingly took a poz load from an openly poz guy? How did you feel before, during and after?
"I do, actually. I was 22. It was from a friend of this guy I used to fuck. This guy was my age and an escort (I didn't hire him, but it's what he did for a living), and I'm assuming was negative (he said he was). We would get together quite a lot, and always flip fuck bb. I went to his place every other week or so, and would usually stay all night. Sometimes he'd even have a client over that we'd tagteam or have fuck us. But he also was friends with this other twink that was poz and who would occasionally come over to buy some weed. But we'd never fuck or anything. Just polite smalltalk. I knew he was poz before I ever met him, as my friend said something like "This cute twink friend is coming over to buy some weed. He's cute but poz." He was cute as fuck, though, and something about him being poz just turned me on. I remember the first time I met him, I kept looking at him and wondering how he became poz, running all these wild scenarios through my head, and it just turned me on immensely. He came over a couple more times (and actually, whenever I'd go hang out with my friend I'd always hope he'd be there or come by), but nothing happened. I even looked him up on an escort site, and his listing said he was poz. Though his real name was Josh, he had some cheesy porny escort name hehe. I didn't hire him though, and just kept hoping something would happen when we came across one another at my friend's. Finally, he ended up coming over one time, again to buy weed, and my friend didn't have any on him. He did arrange to go meet a client, though, and get paid in pot. So he left for an hour, and it was just me and the poz twink that stayed behind at his house. It was a bit awkward because we didn't know eachother too well, and so again mostly made smalltalk. He eventually started asking what me and my friend would do all day and night while hanging out, though. I was kind of embarrassed to tell him, thinking he wasn't in to the fact that we'd hang out and just fuck and exchange loads all day and night and occasionally have other guys over. Since he'd never participated in any of it with us - despite having been over a few times - I just assumed he wasn't the least bit in to that kind of stuff. Instead of reacting badly, though, he seemed to get a real kick out of it and once we started talking about that kind of stuff, we got way more comfortable with one another and actually started to have a fun convo. I asked him why he never joined us. He said something along the lines of, "You couldn't have your little bareback parties if i was there because I'm poz", but I just responded that I didn't care about that. He looked at me a little funny, and was like, "Oh, really?". I said, "Yeah. You're hot. I'd do it all with you". Mind you, none of this was like some pre-seduction conversation haha. It wasn't all hot and steamy in the room. Rather, we were kind of laughing and giggling while saying it all, as if just playing around and having fun. But there was clearly a bit of tension there and some truth to what we were each saying, despite the laughs and joking tones. He mentioned that Chris (the friend out getting the weed from the client) wasn't in to the poz thing, so I said back that we should have our own fun without him at some point. We ended up exchanging AIM names and cell #s, but not doing anything that day. We kept talking about it until my friend came back, though. By that point, we'd pretty much agreed we both thought one another was cute, and thought so when we first saw one another the first time he'd come over to buy weed, and wanted to hook up. We also (again, in a joking tone but with some real intent behind it) talked about how we wanted to fuck one another bb. He even mentioned he did similar things with other poz boys (spending all day and night hanging out and fucking raw), and sometimes neg guys that knew and were ok with it. Eventually, our friend came back, though, and so he ended up getting his weed and leaving, but giving me a look and mouthing, "Call me" as we said bye. I called him the very next day hehe. We just chitchatted, but neither of us brought up the bb stuff. We did talk about how we should hang out the upcoming weekend, though. He was going to Vegas with a client for a few days and so couldn't get together until he got back. While in Vegas, though, he was online all the time. I guess his client was there for a convention and so he had nothing to do during the day but sit around the hotel room (he wasn't 21 and so couldn't gamble or go out) and wait for the client to get back at night. It was during these daytime AIM conversations that we'd get all dirty. He would repeatedly ask if I really wanted to fuck bb, if I'd really let him cum in me, if I was really neg, and so on. We'd also share stories about wild shit we'd done before, and wild shit we still wanted to do. He mentioned not really having any idea who pozzed him, as he'd been doing all kinds of stuff for a couple years and so it could have been any number of people, from boyfriends to clients to total strangers or random hookups. Like me, he didn't party. Just weed. In fact, our little joke with one another is that we should get together "nP" - just the "and Play" part of the "Party and Play" thing, because we didn't do any hard drugs or party, but we still did the "and Play" portion involving hours and hours and perhaps even a couple days of just straight, raw, sex with a bunch of guys hehe. Our AIM convos were always full of things like, "I can't wait to breed you", "I can't wait for your load", "I want your poz load" and stuff like that. Pretty hot shit, actually. lol. Anyways, we set up a "date" for when he got back from Vegas, and ended up getting together at his place. He lived with a roommate who was also an escort, and also poz. A year or two older than he was, and also quite cute. I was actually the one that fucked him first, and came in him. Complete with tons of dirty talk. We took a small break after that, just watching some bb porn and going online to talk to other guys. We'd discussed possibly finding some other boys to have over during the course of the night so were feeling out prospects. A quick sidenote... at one point his roommate had a trick over. Josh and I were in the kitchen making drinks when the boy showed up, and I immediately recognized him. He was actually the ex boyfriend of another, fairly close friend. 20, super cute, and lived near me. So it was a bit awkward when he came in and we saw one another because we both knew what we were doing there. But he quickly went in to the other bedroom with the roommate to do their thing. Josh and I went back to his room, where Josh told me that boy would come over regularly, and would always leave with his roommates load in him. Josh had even fucked and cum in him once. The dude knew they were poz, and they assumed he was (though I'd never heard any mention of that, or of my friend that he was exes with being poz). It had quite an impression on me at the time, though, because I imagined all these cute guys I knew not only being in to taking or giving loads, but also possibly being poz or at least taking poz loads. Prior to that, I'd always kept my "friend life" and my "bb fuckbuddy life" separate. And actually feared what might happen if they came across one another or I ever ran in to some guy who knew what a slut I was while out with friends or something. So it was a cool moment, and a hot one. I was so turned on thinking about my friend's hot ex taking poz loads, possibly being poz, and even my friend possibly having done it all too. Back to me and Josh, though. hehe. I'd shot my load in him soon after getting to his place, but he'd had yet to cum in me or cum at all, in fact. We'd chatted with a couple guys online, and he pointed out some that he knew were poz or that he'd fucked around with before (turns out I recognized or knew a couple of them, too). We talked about possibly having some over later that night, but he wanted to fuck me first. There was no, "Are you sure you want it?" talk or anything like that. All that had been taken care of before I even showed up at his place that day. In actuality, despite how much we'd talk about the poz thing, that wasn't why we were hooking up - which is to say, I wasn't there to take his load because I wanted his poz load, and he wasn't there to fuck me because he wanted to cum in a neg guy. It was more like the poz factor was a non-issue, and we both just wanted to fuck and swap loads all night regardless of status. When we'd even bring up the poz thing or mention it, it was comparable to if we were just talking about big dicks or something. Just another detail about or aspect of a guy. It was more about the raw, marathon bareback sex, with the fact that he was poz and I was neg just being a non issue. As if we were both neg, or both poz. Granted, I definitely found myself turned on knowing I was going to get fucked by this hot poz boy. And he mentioned being turned on by knowing I was neg, knew he was poz, and that I was going to still take his load. But we didn't keep bring up the poz/neg stuff or any of that. We were just having fun. Funny enough... my first ever, known poz load is a bit anticlimactic. After this big, long story! We were playing with eachothers dicks while sitting in front of the computer looking at guys. I fingered his hole some, feeling the load I'd shot in there earlier. I'd even put my finger in his ass, pull it out, and let him suck on it. Finally, we moved from the computer to the bed, and he said he wanted to fuck me now. I was on my back, legs up, and he lubed his dick up and slid in to me. He was leaning forward and we were kissing, and after about a half dozen pumps he froze. He told me not to move either. He was so close to cumming but didn't want to yet lol. I guess he was so worked up that he hadn't even been in me for a minute and already was about to cum. It was incredibly cute and hot. "Don't move! I'm too close!" I couldn't resist, though, so started clenching my ass and moving my hips as I just smiled at him and kind of chuckled. "Fuck!! You fucker!" he half yelled/half laughed. I said, "Do it! Just do it!" and so he gave a couple quick thrusts, and started shooting his load in to me. I can't say I could feel his cum spraying in me. But I definitely felt his dick pulsing as he shot. It was awesome. He collapsed on top of me, his head on my chest, and we started giggling again. I poked fun at him for cumming so quick, and played angry at how I didn't stop moving like he asked. All very hot, but also very lighthearted. We were having tons of fun. He kept his dick in me, though, and was still fairly hard. We made out for awhile, with him on top of me like that. We made some comments back and forth about how I finally got his load and how he finally got to shoot his in me. Even a quick comment about how I could end up poz from it. We fucked a lot more that night, and even messed around with the roommate. We had 2 guys over that we found online, as well. Also, Josh and I got together probably 8 or 10 more times to have our little day-long sex sessions. I stopped meeting up with Chris because I figured he wouldn't want to get with me anymore anyways, since I'd been trading loads with his poz friend."
Do you think you'll get tested soon? How do you think your life will change, sexually and otherwise, if you test poz?
"Probably not. I have no real desire to or interest in getting tested.
I know there are a lot of insanely fun things, as well as really awesome people, I never would have come across had I been obsessed with status. I simply disregard it - my own and others. And, I also make it quite obvious in my online profiles as well as the manner in which I speak to others that 1) I don't know my status 2) I engage in risky behavior. So, guys I hook up with know it's possible I could be poz already. Sex partners, at least. My "friend and coworker" associates have no clue hehe."
"How goes it? Just wanted to write in real quick and say how much I love your blog. Chaser here, too. Started when I was 19. Culminated in a gangbang at a bathhouse when I was 22 in which I took over 20 loads - all anonymously. To be honest, haven't been tested since then. Don't know if I'm still poz or neg or what. But I can hardly turn down a load, and love giving them also. 29 here and love breeding younger guys too. Dump a load in to twinks at least 2-3 times a week.
Again, just wanted to write and say how hot I think your blog is and how cool it is to read guys doing, today, what I was doing when I was in college :)"
I knew that I wanted to find out more about this guy, so I asked him if he would do a similar interview. He emphatically agreed saying, "I love talking about it with fellow guys that understand and are in to it :)"
First thing, give me a little introduction of yourself for my readers, like your stats, sexual interests, anything else interesting and unique we should know about you. Secondly, tell us about how, why, when you got into barebacking.
"As for stats, just turned 29 exactly a month ago. I'm 6'0'', 190, brown hair and eyes, mixed race (3/4 white, 1/4 hawaiian), 7.5c and pretty thick. As for sexual interests - just about anything, apart from scat, blood and paid. Love groups, bb, ws, gloryholes, anonymous scenes, taking pics and vids, roleplay, public sex, exhibitionism, voyeurism. I don't do drugs, though, so no PnP.
I work in the IT field.
The very first time I got fucked, it was bareback. But it wasn't overtly bareback, really, which is to say it just kind of happened that way rather than was purposefully intended to be that way. At least, as far as I was concerned. I was 16 and it was with a neighbor who was about 35. I ran in to him out on the street, walking his dog in the middle of the night, as I was stumbling home drunk from a party. He offered to let me sober up at his place so that I wouldn't get busted by my parents and eventually was all over me and ended up fucking and cumming in me.
I didn't do anything else with anyone until I went in to the military after high school, but by that point had become super paranoid about STDs so always did stuff safe. Even one time when I sucked some guys dick at an adult bookstore during a weekend liberty from base, I was freaked out for the next few weeks thinking I'd caught something. So I was pretty hardcore in to condoms for another year after that. Plus, I was super paranoid being in the military and so didn't have much sex anyways.
At 19, I was still in the military but stationed in CA. And I had some independence, living with some friends instead of in military housing. So I was spending a lot of time online looking for guys. The first time I bb'ed at this point, it was with a guy who lived really close and actually worked at the same base I was stationed at (he was a civilian, though). He picked me up and took me to his place and fucked me without a condom. I remember thinking how odd that was but didn't say anything about it or ask him to stop. What was noticeably different, however, was that I didn't get all that freaked out by it. Not even afterwards. So it didn't turn me on fiercely, but didn't bother me much, either.
Shortly after that, I met a guy online that opened me up to a lot of stuff. He loved having me come fuck him, but didn't top. So, instead, he'd invite guys over to fuck me after I got done fucking him. He was about 30 or so and really dug having some 19yo military guy around that was so up for trying out just about anything. In fact, one night he hosted an orgy at his place and invited me to it and I fucked about 3 guys that night and got fucked by 4 or 5. All bareback. I still didn't really get that bareback was this big deal or that all the guys at the party were expressly in to that and that's what they were there for. I just figured no one got around to pulling out condoms or that everyone was screened beforehand or something hehe. I was pretty clueless. It was really at that party that I first started to genuinely get turned on by having a guy cum inside me. It wasn't the cum shooting in to me so much as just the knowledge that a guy was cumming in me and having him continue fucking me to the point of cumming. It just tripped a switch in me, I guess. The previous times the guy would invite dudes over to fuck me before that orgy, it was hot and all. And always bareback. But more as a matter of routine than anything else. At that orgy, however, I really began to get turned on by cumming in guys and having guys cum in me and so I think that's really the point where I started to purposefully go out and seek giving and getting loads, rather than just happening to do so because no one got around to pulling out condoms.
In fact, it was about 6 months later (had just turned 20) that I met a different guy in an AOL chat room that started to amp things up even more for me. He wasn't my usual type, but had a huge cock. At least 10''. And I'd made up my mind that day that I wanted to get fucked by the biggest dick I could find online and it was his haha. We didn't really talk about bb beforehand, but once I was at his place and we were working up to him fucking me, he started talking about it. He spend a good while playing with and rimming my ass and kept talking about how much he wanted to cum inside me. He got pretty graphic with it all and was really turning me on, and eventually I was begging him to "Breed me" and other things he was getting me to say. It hurt like hell when he fucked me and he was by far the biggest dick I'd ever taken, but I just took it nonetheless because I was so turned on. He kept talking about breeding me, filling me up, and other such stuff that I'd never really heard before but that was turning me on more and more. After he came in me and I had cum also, we chatted a bit before I left. He told me about barebackcity.com, which isn't around anymore, and said I should check it out. To give you an idea of how clueless I was still, I thought "bareback city" must actually be a physical place haha. Like a small town or something. I didn't realize it was just a hookup site (I also didn't realize what "party" meant and just figured if you liked to go to parties, you "paried" haha. And literally thought "watersports" was guys who were in to surfing and stuff. I was so naive and clueless on that stuff, yet such a hornball at the same time). Once I joined that site, though, I was hooked.
About a week after I got fucked by the 10'' dick dude, I spent a whole day getting fucked by random guys. What I'd actually done was lined up a bunch of hookups for the day, and went from one guys place to another guys place, getting fucked over and over. All bareback. I spaced all the hookups out by about 45mins and just went from one place to the next. Most were from barebackcity.com, others from AOL and gay.com. If a guy would flake or I'd have some time to kill, I'd just run to the nearest Kinkos, get on one of their computers, and line up someone else. haha.
So around then was the time I just started really going after BB and seeking it out and not wanting to use condoms at all. I got tested about 2 years after all that craziness (and 2 years full of even more bb) and was still neg. Kind of blew me away. But haven't been tested since then. Back then, I was still kind of making it a point to go after guys that said they were neg and play that game. But I can save the rest, including when that aspect changed, for the next e-mail :) I'd mentioned going to a bathhouse in my first e-mail, when I took a ton of loads. That was right after getting out of the military (I was discharged because of some sports-related injuries). But again, can save that for another e-mail if you're interested.
Wow.. that was quite the story! You implied that you're no longer just after the neg loads?
"Thanks! I had fun reliving it and writing it out! Yeah, I no longer care about whether a guy is poz or neg. All I care about is getting the load. A couple times, I've even found myself more turned on knowing the guy was poz and wanting his load even more because of that. But, for the most part, it's more about just not caring either way. Neg, poz, unsure, whatever. I still want the load. I can't really say how many poz loads I've taken. I'd been in a couple group scenes where I've taken a few, as the younger bottom and center of attention where the whole point was to have the poz guys fuck me. And some other groups where I had guys hint that they were poz while fucking me or after they came in me. And even hooked up with guys that didn't tell me they were poz, but that I knew were through mutual friends or from having seen them online somewhere.
Do you remember when you first knowingly took a poz load from an openly poz guy? How did you feel before, during and after?
"I do, actually. I was 22. It was from a friend of this guy I used to fuck. This guy was my age and an escort (I didn't hire him, but it's what he did for a living), and I'm assuming was negative (he said he was). We would get together quite a lot, and always flip fuck bb. I went to his place every other week or so, and would usually stay all night. Sometimes he'd even have a client over that we'd tagteam or have fuck us. But he also was friends with this other twink that was poz and who would occasionally come over to buy some weed. But we'd never fuck or anything. Just polite smalltalk. I knew he was poz before I ever met him, as my friend said something like "This cute twink friend is coming over to buy some weed. He's cute but poz." He was cute as fuck, though, and something about him being poz just turned me on. I remember the first time I met him, I kept looking at him and wondering how he became poz, running all these wild scenarios through my head, and it just turned me on immensely. He came over a couple more times (and actually, whenever I'd go hang out with my friend I'd always hope he'd be there or come by), but nothing happened. I even looked him up on an escort site, and his listing said he was poz. Though his real name was Josh, he had some cheesy porny escort name hehe. I didn't hire him though, and just kept hoping something would happen when we came across one another at my friend's. Finally, he ended up coming over one time, again to buy weed, and my friend didn't have any on him. He did arrange to go meet a client, though, and get paid in pot. So he left for an hour, and it was just me and the poz twink that stayed behind at his house. It was a bit awkward because we didn't know eachother too well, and so again mostly made smalltalk. He eventually started asking what me and my friend would do all day and night while hanging out, though. I was kind of embarrassed to tell him, thinking he wasn't in to the fact that we'd hang out and just fuck and exchange loads all day and night and occasionally have other guys over. Since he'd never participated in any of it with us - despite having been over a few times - I just assumed he wasn't the least bit in to that kind of stuff. Instead of reacting badly, though, he seemed to get a real kick out of it and once we started talking about that kind of stuff, we got way more comfortable with one another and actually started to have a fun convo. I asked him why he never joined us. He said something along the lines of, "You couldn't have your little bareback parties if i was there because I'm poz", but I just responded that I didn't care about that. He looked at me a little funny, and was like, "Oh, really?". I said, "Yeah. You're hot. I'd do it all with you". Mind you, none of this was like some pre-seduction conversation haha. It wasn't all hot and steamy in the room. Rather, we were kind of laughing and giggling while saying it all, as if just playing around and having fun. But there was clearly a bit of tension there and some truth to what we were each saying, despite the laughs and joking tones. He mentioned that Chris (the friend out getting the weed from the client) wasn't in to the poz thing, so I said back that we should have our own fun without him at some point. We ended up exchanging AIM names and cell #s, but not doing anything that day. We kept talking about it until my friend came back, though. By that point, we'd pretty much agreed we both thought one another was cute, and thought so when we first saw one another the first time he'd come over to buy weed, and wanted to hook up. We also (again, in a joking tone but with some real intent behind it) talked about how we wanted to fuck one another bb. He even mentioned he did similar things with other poz boys (spending all day and night hanging out and fucking raw), and sometimes neg guys that knew and were ok with it. Eventually, our friend came back, though, and so he ended up getting his weed and leaving, but giving me a look and mouthing, "Call me" as we said bye. I called him the very next day hehe. We just chitchatted, but neither of us brought up the bb stuff. We did talk about how we should hang out the upcoming weekend, though. He was going to Vegas with a client for a few days and so couldn't get together until he got back. While in Vegas, though, he was online all the time. I guess his client was there for a convention and so he had nothing to do during the day but sit around the hotel room (he wasn't 21 and so couldn't gamble or go out) and wait for the client to get back at night. It was during these daytime AIM conversations that we'd get all dirty. He would repeatedly ask if I really wanted to fuck bb, if I'd really let him cum in me, if I was really neg, and so on. We'd also share stories about wild shit we'd done before, and wild shit we still wanted to do. He mentioned not really having any idea who pozzed him, as he'd been doing all kinds of stuff for a couple years and so it could have been any number of people, from boyfriends to clients to total strangers or random hookups. Like me, he didn't party. Just weed. In fact, our little joke with one another is that we should get together "nP" - just the "and Play" part of the "Party and Play" thing, because we didn't do any hard drugs or party, but we still did the "and Play" portion involving hours and hours and perhaps even a couple days of just straight, raw, sex with a bunch of guys hehe. Our AIM convos were always full of things like, "I can't wait to breed you", "I can't wait for your load", "I want your poz load" and stuff like that. Pretty hot shit, actually. lol. Anyways, we set up a "date" for when he got back from Vegas, and ended up getting together at his place. He lived with a roommate who was also an escort, and also poz. A year or two older than he was, and also quite cute. I was actually the one that fucked him first, and came in him. Complete with tons of dirty talk. We took a small break after that, just watching some bb porn and going online to talk to other guys. We'd discussed possibly finding some other boys to have over during the course of the night so were feeling out prospects. A quick sidenote... at one point his roommate had a trick over. Josh and I were in the kitchen making drinks when the boy showed up, and I immediately recognized him. He was actually the ex boyfriend of another, fairly close friend. 20, super cute, and lived near me. So it was a bit awkward when he came in and we saw one another because we both knew what we were doing there. But he quickly went in to the other bedroom with the roommate to do their thing. Josh and I went back to his room, where Josh told me that boy would come over regularly, and would always leave with his roommates load in him. Josh had even fucked and cum in him once. The dude knew they were poz, and they assumed he was (though I'd never heard any mention of that, or of my friend that he was exes with being poz). It had quite an impression on me at the time, though, because I imagined all these cute guys I knew not only being in to taking or giving loads, but also possibly being poz or at least taking poz loads. Prior to that, I'd always kept my "friend life" and my "bb fuckbuddy life" separate. And actually feared what might happen if they came across one another or I ever ran in to some guy who knew what a slut I was while out with friends or something. So it was a cool moment, and a hot one. I was so turned on thinking about my friend's hot ex taking poz loads, possibly being poz, and even my friend possibly having done it all too. Back to me and Josh, though. hehe. I'd shot my load in him soon after getting to his place, but he'd had yet to cum in me or cum at all, in fact. We'd chatted with a couple guys online, and he pointed out some that he knew were poz or that he'd fucked around with before (turns out I recognized or knew a couple of them, too). We talked about possibly having some over later that night, but he wanted to fuck me first. There was no, "Are you sure you want it?" talk or anything like that. All that had been taken care of before I even showed up at his place that day. In actuality, despite how much we'd talk about the poz thing, that wasn't why we were hooking up - which is to say, I wasn't there to take his load because I wanted his poz load, and he wasn't there to fuck me because he wanted to cum in a neg guy. It was more like the poz factor was a non-issue, and we both just wanted to fuck and swap loads all night regardless of status. When we'd even bring up the poz thing or mention it, it was comparable to if we were just talking about big dicks or something. Just another detail about or aspect of a guy. It was more about the raw, marathon bareback sex, with the fact that he was poz and I was neg just being a non issue. As if we were both neg, or both poz. Granted, I definitely found myself turned on knowing I was going to get fucked by this hot poz boy. And he mentioned being turned on by knowing I was neg, knew he was poz, and that I was going to still take his load. But we didn't keep bring up the poz/neg stuff or any of that. We were just having fun. Funny enough... my first ever, known poz load is a bit anticlimactic. After this big, long story! We were playing with eachothers dicks while sitting in front of the computer looking at guys. I fingered his hole some, feeling the load I'd shot in there earlier. I'd even put my finger in his ass, pull it out, and let him suck on it. Finally, we moved from the computer to the bed, and he said he wanted to fuck me now. I was on my back, legs up, and he lubed his dick up and slid in to me. He was leaning forward and we were kissing, and after about a half dozen pumps he froze. He told me not to move either. He was so close to cumming but didn't want to yet lol. I guess he was so worked up that he hadn't even been in me for a minute and already was about to cum. It was incredibly cute and hot. "Don't move! I'm too close!" I couldn't resist, though, so started clenching my ass and moving my hips as I just smiled at him and kind of chuckled. "Fuck!! You fucker!" he half yelled/half laughed. I said, "Do it! Just do it!" and so he gave a couple quick thrusts, and started shooting his load in to me. I can't say I could feel his cum spraying in me. But I definitely felt his dick pulsing as he shot. It was awesome. He collapsed on top of me, his head on my chest, and we started giggling again. I poked fun at him for cumming so quick, and played angry at how I didn't stop moving like he asked. All very hot, but also very lighthearted. We were having tons of fun. He kept his dick in me, though, and was still fairly hard. We made out for awhile, with him on top of me like that. We made some comments back and forth about how I finally got his load and how he finally got to shoot his in me. Even a quick comment about how I could end up poz from it. We fucked a lot more that night, and even messed around with the roommate. We had 2 guys over that we found online, as well. Also, Josh and I got together probably 8 or 10 more times to have our little day-long sex sessions. I stopped meeting up with Chris because I figured he wouldn't want to get with me anymore anyways, since I'd been trading loads with his poz friend."
Do you think you'll get tested soon? How do you think your life will change, sexually and otherwise, if you test poz?
"Probably not. I have no real desire to or interest in getting tested.
If I were to get in a relationship with someone and it mattered to them that I get tested, then I'd probably do it.
I'm not naive about things and know that there are real implications to things and life couldn't help but change. That's just the reality of things. There would be health concerns, financial, social, etc. At the same time, though, I guess you could say that I've chosen to live life in a way that just involves doing what I want to do and disregarding status. I could go on and on and on about how I feel about the whole condom/HIV thing and peoples' mentalities and mindsets regarding that, as well as what we're almost conditioned to believe and think and feel about it all. How we're almost held hostage by it as well as how this insane focus on condoms!condoms!condoms! has really been, in my opinion, more detrimental than anything else. But I would imagine you're probably not interested in that, at least for your blog, so I'll skip all that stuff hehe. But I could go on and on about what I feel the deeper reasons are that barebacking has become so popular and how much of that came out of the obsession with safe sex and condoms.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Inquiring Minds Want to Know
If you're heading out to the beach to soak up the summer sun this weekend, put on your sexiest trunks since that's what most of my readers like best. Personally, I think I look best in trunks anyway, but I prefer checking out a hot swimmer boy in a pair of bikini shorts.
This week's poll is all about the many different flavors of the gay rainbow and which you prefer sampling. There's really more out there than a Baskin Robbins shop and I'd love a chance to sample them all ;-)
This week's poll is all about the many different flavors of the gay rainbow and which you prefer sampling. There's really more out there than a Baskin Robbins shop and I'd love a chance to sample them all ;-)
Porn Stars I'd Like To Fuck: Matt Hughes
To say that Matt Hughes is packing some massive meat in his pants is an understatement. He sports one of the biggest cocks in the porn world and has unofficially acquired the nick name "The 11 inch fuck stud." It's also the title of the new Eurocreme movie featuring Matt in every scene.
Even though he doesn't have the cutest face or the hottest body in the world of porn, I've become drawn to him recently because I started to relentlessly fantasize about an old fuck bud of ours who much like Matt wasn't the best looking of our tricks, but was packing an advertised 11" cock, although unlike most gay ads I'm sure it was bigger. He had to be more modest in his ads not to scare people off! Neither Matt or our fuck bud were bad looking by any means though, very much the average boy next door, maybe a little rough around the edges, but with a cock and the talent to more than make up for it. And if they did have the cutest face or hottest bods in the world, then I'd probably pass them up as being "too perfect."
Normally I get apprehensive about guys bigger than 8" because unless they really are talented at using it, it doesn't feel good at all! Unfortunately, many guys with big dicks don't bother honing their topping skills since we're all just supposed to worship their big dicks anyway. Our 11" fuck bud was one of the best fucks I've ever had, and after watching Matt work over many comparatively tiny holes, I think about that fuck and start to salivate at the fantasy of bending over and getting my ass stretched open wide and deep for either of their industrial sized tools.
Even though he doesn't have the cutest face or the hottest body in the world of porn, I've become drawn to him recently because I started to relentlessly fantasize about an old fuck bud of ours who much like Matt wasn't the best looking of our tricks, but was packing an advertised 11" cock, although unlike most gay ads I'm sure it was bigger. He had to be more modest in his ads not to scare people off! Neither Matt or our fuck bud were bad looking by any means though, very much the average boy next door, maybe a little rough around the edges, but with a cock and the talent to more than make up for it. And if they did have the cutest face or hottest bods in the world, then I'd probably pass them up as being "too perfect."
Normally I get apprehensive about guys bigger than 8" because unless they really are talented at using it, it doesn't feel good at all! Unfortunately, many guys with big dicks don't bother honing their topping skills since we're all just supposed to worship their big dicks anyway. Our 11" fuck bud was one of the best fucks I've ever had, and after watching Matt work over many comparatively tiny holes, I think about that fuck and start to salivate at the fantasy of bending over and getting my ass stretched open wide and deep for either of their industrial sized tools.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Interview With A Young Cumdump
I get a lot of fan mail and one guy caught my attention a little more than most:
"hi. a guy i know told me about ur blog and stuff. im 18 and i live in FL tho im from CA (mvoed here a year ago with my family). anyways he mentioned u were lookin to talk to other young guys who r trying to get hiv. i dont think im really tryin to get hiv. i jsut dont care i guess u could say lol. and i guess it also kinda turns me on the thought of gettin it. but anyways i dont really know what youre lookin for or what kinda info or anything but just figured it'd be cool to write cuz its kinda cool knowin there r other young guys who think about this stuff. ttyl!"
I wanted to know more about him. I've shared my stories and opinions about barebacking and chasing, so I thought you'd like to know about some other people's stories and views. I asked him if he'd like to be interviewed for my blog and he agreed but wanted to remain anoynamous.
First thing, give me a little introduction of yourself for my readers, like your stats, sexual interests, anything else interesting and unique we should know about you. Secondly, tell us about how, why, when you got into barebacking.
"well i'm 18 and 6'1 155. im white blond with brown eyes. im actually from cali like i mentioned before but moved to fl last summer cuz my dad got a job out here. which kinda sucked cuz i still had to do my senior year of HS. so i was sorta pissed i had to leave cali and all my friends to move to a new place just for sr. year. but whatever lol i graduated and now just figurin out where to go to college. ima to CC for a semester or year before probably goin back to cali.
sexually i guess im more a bottom but i sorta gotta big dick lol so end up topping a lot just cuz guys want me to. parta how i got in to the whole bb thing i guess. because i met this older dude online he was like 28 and guys my age seem to always want me to fuck them but this guy was totally in to just fuckin me all i wanted and even finding other tops for me. we didnt rreally like talk about bb or anything but just never used rubbers when we fucked. and after we did that a few times we'd talk online or text eachother about sex when we werent hangin out and thats when he really started talkin about bareback stuff and gettin me even more turned on about it lol.
before that id only ever did shit with a bf i had out in cali. but i wasnt out of the closet in cali and so this bf was the only guy i ever did shit with and we always did it bb also but not cuz we were super in to that but because its all we really knew about haha. so it was just the normal thing to do.
but anwyays so with this freind out here in FL i started hangin with him more and more and he knew other guys he'd have come over to his place while we were fuckin around for us to have 3ways with. and we even went to orlando a few times and would have guys over at our hotel there. and it was always bb whenver we had someone over. like he'd actually post on craigslist askin for guys in to bb or go on to sites lookin for guys in to bb. which was just all real hot to me and thats what got me in to it more and more. and he'd invite guys over to fuck me. so it was hot because i was pretty much gettin fucked as much as i wanted and they were always cute guys lol. my friend is kinda loaded and so sometimes he hires an escort for me or us. but he also just seems to always have young guys around too. hes chill and cute and has a lotta money so thats prolly why lol. even tho hes older than all of us. but i think thats what really got me in to it more and more. me and him never talked about chasing or gettin poz but he did sometimes mention a guy he was chattin to online to invite over was poz and if i cared and i always said no at first but just kinda eventually stopped saying no esp. if the guy was super hot. but it was mainly when me and him would text eachother or chat online in between the times we'd hang out that he'd really start sayin kinky shit and gettin me turned on to the whole bb thing and not just like doin it to do it but thinkin about it all the time and being really really in to it"
So at first you were shy about taking a poz load, but now you're not? How did that change for you?
"it changed i guess cuz i met this dude and we would fuck around then me and him were online one nite lookin for other guys to come over to his place to fuck around with us and 1 of em we were chattin with was poz. but reaaaaaaally fukkin cute. super cute lol. my friend really wanted him over but i was a bit sketched out but ended up agreein just cuz the guy was so fukkin hot so we had him come over. n i pretty much just was only gonna top him is all i agreed to do. i thought we were both just gonna top him actualy cuz he was a vers bttm anyways. i didnt even really do nothin cept for oral at first also, but my friend fucked the dude and he fucked him bb. and so i ended up just kinda goin along and fucked him bb too. we all chiled for like 5 or 6 hours lol cuz we were just hangin and we'd fuck and hang more and watched a movie even and even went out to get food. and after we got back from gettin food we all started messin around again and my friend totally sat on the guys dick bb which kinda surprised me but didnt bother me. so i watched this dude fuck my friend and it was a turn on seein how in to it they were. the dude ended up nutting in my friend and i fucked him once more after that and i let my friend fuck me, but still didnt let that dude fuck me.
so after that me and my friend were on aim talkin and i was askin him why he let that guy fuck him and he said because he was super cute so he wanted him to fuck him and cum in him and he didnt care that he was poz. which sorta got us all talkin about the poz thing and other poz guys we knew or guys we know that we heard might be. and he just kept talkin about it and the more we chatted about it the more it turned me on thinkin about it. so we ended up meetin up with that kid again and he did fuck me and nut in me. i was still a lil freaked tho but again just chattin with my bud after just kept makin me more turned on. so we did it again with a different guy. lol.
and then actually i met even another guy online who kept talkin about it. at first we just talked about bb and how hot it was. and met up and he fucked me. and he kept talkin about how hot i was and how he wanted to see other guys fuck me. which i said was ok and i was up for that. and he kept askin what kind of guys i wanted to fuck me and asked if i was ok with any being poz. and i said it depended on the guy. which he thought was really hot that id let a poz guy fuck me if he was hot enough. and he kept bringin that up sayin he wanted to do it and eventualy he told me he was poz and it ended up just turnin me on more lol. so i guess thats how it changed haha"
Did you ever end up letting the poz guy have his friends fuck you while he watched?
"ya i did. the first time he just had 1 friend over and then 1 more time after that he had that same dude plus 1 other guy over
actually im sposed to meet him friday also to do it agian lol"
What would be your ultimate fantasy?
"to be gangbanged by a buncha guys like as much as 20 or 30 lol all of em cummin in me. theyd all be hot and some would be poz but i wouldnt know which ones were and which ones werent"
I've also had that fantasy :-) If and when you test poz, how do you think that will change your life, both sexually and elsewise?
"ya its a hot fantasy lol. i duno really. i mean i know a buncha poz guys already so i figure that i can still meet guys easy n date em n shit like that. i mean i know there will be some differences of course and i see online guys that r pretty hardcore about only bein with neg guys n shit. then of course theres health stuff. but i think itll really mean i can do a lot more sexually n just do what i wanna do and be all crazy n shit haha"
"hi. a guy i know told me about ur blog and stuff. im 18 and i live in FL tho im from CA (mvoed here a year ago with my family). anyways he mentioned u were lookin to talk to other young guys who r trying to get hiv. i dont think im really tryin to get hiv. i jsut dont care i guess u could say lol. and i guess it also kinda turns me on the thought of gettin it. but anyways i dont really know what youre lookin for or what kinda info or anything but just figured it'd be cool to write cuz its kinda cool knowin there r other young guys who think about this stuff. ttyl!"
I wanted to know more about him. I've shared my stories and opinions about barebacking and chasing, so I thought you'd like to know about some other people's stories and views. I asked him if he'd like to be interviewed for my blog and he agreed but wanted to remain anoynamous.
First thing, give me a little introduction of yourself for my readers, like your stats, sexual interests, anything else interesting and unique we should know about you. Secondly, tell us about how, why, when you got into barebacking.
"well i'm 18 and 6'1 155. im white blond with brown eyes. im actually from cali like i mentioned before but moved to fl last summer cuz my dad got a job out here. which kinda sucked cuz i still had to do my senior year of HS. so i was sorta pissed i had to leave cali and all my friends to move to a new place just for sr. year. but whatever lol i graduated and now just figurin out where to go to college. ima to CC for a semester or year before probably goin back to cali.
sexually i guess im more a bottom but i sorta gotta big dick lol so end up topping a lot just cuz guys want me to. parta how i got in to the whole bb thing i guess. because i met this older dude online he was like 28 and guys my age seem to always want me to fuck them but this guy was totally in to just fuckin me all i wanted and even finding other tops for me. we didnt rreally like talk about bb or anything but just never used rubbers when we fucked. and after we did that a few times we'd talk online or text eachother about sex when we werent hangin out and thats when he really started talkin about bareback stuff and gettin me even more turned on about it lol.
before that id only ever did shit with a bf i had out in cali. but i wasnt out of the closet in cali and so this bf was the only guy i ever did shit with and we always did it bb also but not cuz we were super in to that but because its all we really knew about haha. so it was just the normal thing to do.
but anwyays so with this freind out here in FL i started hangin with him more and more and he knew other guys he'd have come over to his place while we were fuckin around for us to have 3ways with. and we even went to orlando a few times and would have guys over at our hotel there. and it was always bb whenver we had someone over. like he'd actually post on craigslist askin for guys in to bb or go on to sites lookin for guys in to bb. which was just all real hot to me and thats what got me in to it more and more. and he'd invite guys over to fuck me. so it was hot because i was pretty much gettin fucked as much as i wanted and they were always cute guys lol. my friend is kinda loaded and so sometimes he hires an escort for me or us. but he also just seems to always have young guys around too. hes chill and cute and has a lotta money so thats prolly why lol. even tho hes older than all of us. but i think thats what really got me in to it more and more. me and him never talked about chasing or gettin poz but he did sometimes mention a guy he was chattin to online to invite over was poz and if i cared and i always said no at first but just kinda eventually stopped saying no esp. if the guy was super hot. but it was mainly when me and him would text eachother or chat online in between the times we'd hang out that he'd really start sayin kinky shit and gettin me turned on to the whole bb thing and not just like doin it to do it but thinkin about it all the time and being really really in to it"
So at first you were shy about taking a poz load, but now you're not? How did that change for you?
"it changed i guess cuz i met this dude and we would fuck around then me and him were online one nite lookin for other guys to come over to his place to fuck around with us and 1 of em we were chattin with was poz. but reaaaaaaally fukkin cute. super cute lol. my friend really wanted him over but i was a bit sketched out but ended up agreein just cuz the guy was so fukkin hot so we had him come over. n i pretty much just was only gonna top him is all i agreed to do. i thought we were both just gonna top him actualy cuz he was a vers bttm anyways. i didnt even really do nothin cept for oral at first also, but my friend fucked the dude and he fucked him bb. and so i ended up just kinda goin along and fucked him bb too. we all chiled for like 5 or 6 hours lol cuz we were just hangin and we'd fuck and hang more and watched a movie even and even went out to get food. and after we got back from gettin food we all started messin around again and my friend totally sat on the guys dick bb which kinda surprised me but didnt bother me. so i watched this dude fuck my friend and it was a turn on seein how in to it they were. the dude ended up nutting in my friend and i fucked him once more after that and i let my friend fuck me, but still didnt let that dude fuck me.
so after that me and my friend were on aim talkin and i was askin him why he let that guy fuck him and he said because he was super cute so he wanted him to fuck him and cum in him and he didnt care that he was poz. which sorta got us all talkin about the poz thing and other poz guys we knew or guys we know that we heard might be. and he just kept talkin about it and the more we chatted about it the more it turned me on thinkin about it. so we ended up meetin up with that kid again and he did fuck me and nut in me. i was still a lil freaked tho but again just chattin with my bud after just kept makin me more turned on. so we did it again with a different guy. lol.
and then actually i met even another guy online who kept talkin about it. at first we just talked about bb and how hot it was. and met up and he fucked me. and he kept talkin about how hot i was and how he wanted to see other guys fuck me. which i said was ok and i was up for that. and he kept askin what kind of guys i wanted to fuck me and asked if i was ok with any being poz. and i said it depended on the guy. which he thought was really hot that id let a poz guy fuck me if he was hot enough. and he kept bringin that up sayin he wanted to do it and eventualy he told me he was poz and it ended up just turnin me on more lol. so i guess thats how it changed haha"
Did you ever end up letting the poz guy have his friends fuck you while he watched?
"ya i did. the first time he just had 1 friend over and then 1 more time after that he had that same dude plus 1 other guy over
actually im sposed to meet him friday also to do it agian lol"
What would be your ultimate fantasy?
"to be gangbanged by a buncha guys like as much as 20 or 30 lol all of em cummin in me. theyd all be hot and some would be poz but i wouldnt know which ones were and which ones werent"
I've also had that fantasy :-) If and when you test poz, how do you think that will change your life, both sexually and elsewise?
"ya its a hot fantasy lol. i duno really. i mean i know a buncha poz guys already so i figure that i can still meet guys easy n date em n shit like that. i mean i know there will be some differences of course and i see online guys that r pretty hardcore about only bein with neg guys n shit. then of course theres health stuff. but i think itll really mean i can do a lot more sexually n just do what i wanna do and be all crazy n shit haha"
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